Embracing the Path of Change

When I first entertained the idea of writing a Blog, I felt compelled to start at the beginning, as any good story would. I soon realized that my story doesn't neatly fit in a linear timeline. While a Blog may not seem like a traditional story, it encompasses the essence of storytelling - it's about sharing experiences and insights. This Blog, in particular, centers around the theme of healing and the myriad of events and realizations that contribute to it. For me, it's been a journey marked by tears and laughter, but above all, it's brought forth a newfound awareness that infuses joy into what was once a challenging path. I reflected on my "Why?" for taking the journey towards healing and fulfillment so many years ago - the process of addressing the wounds and limiting beliefs that hindered my ability to live more authentically and fully.

The moments of desired changes often swept over me - a sensation in my body, a surge in my mind, a need for something different, deeper, more. Thoughts echoed: "I can't continue like this. Change has to happen NOW." And the fixes were in... I'll start walking, go to the gym, go to bed earlier, get better sleep, eat healthy, take vitamins, juice, change my style, get organized, go deeper in my faith, donate my time to good causes, a hobby, develop plans and dreams and goals for every area of my life!... Over the years, I've recognized numerous actions and endeavors vital for my personal transformation. While I did pursue them sporadically, I struggled to prioritize them consistently, often feeling inadequate for lacking the passion or commitment towards what I deemed crucial for a fulfilling life. Shame clouded my self-perception. The turning point came one year-end, as I sat in my kitchen, writing my New Year's resolutions. Looking over the familiar list of aspirations, I was struck by a wave of disgust, realizing it mirrored the same unfulfilled promises from previous years.

Realization hit me - it wasn't about specific goals or lifestyle changes: it was about the feelings, confidence, and freedom they promised. Yet, each year, I struggled to stick to them. "Why?" Inevitably after a few months I'd find they didn't fulfill me as expected. Instead, I reverted to familiar patterns shaped by my habitual thinking of experiences, memories, and perceptions. Change began when I started understanding my thoughts, listening to my inner narrative, and reshaping the story of my life.

The journey towards healing began with a determination to address the limiting beliefs that hindered my progress. For me, it meant evolving beyond sadness, insecurity, stress, indecision, and overwhelm towards freedom, love and joy. This process, at first, seemed like a never-ending rabbit hole of contemplation, but it quickly evolved into a clearer understanding of how my experiences and perceptions intersected. It was about gaining personal insight rather than getting lost in endless introspection and self-criticism. Now, life unfolds with greater ease, joy, and fulfillment - a personal transformation ignited by my choice to reshape my thoughts, emotions, and perspectives. Through this Blog, I hope to share insights, struggles, and triumphs, inspiring others on their own paths towards healing and self-discovery.